Well, if you ever did start reading my blog I'm sure you gave up because it has been almost a year since I last posted. I was excited about my upcoming retirement, remember? I had all these wonderful things I was going to do, paint, decorate the house, keep the road hot running hither and yon. Yeah, that didn't happen.
I'm retired, I can stay up all night and sleep till I awake. What? No schedule to keep? Yes, I reveled in it for about a minute then the depression set in. Nobody needed me on a daily basis and I wasn't contributing anything anywhere. The thing about depression, you make up your mind that you will do such and such and then "bam" the depression monster strikes and you find yourself stalling, staying at home lying on the sofa watching TV people (fake people no less) live their exciting lives. Yes, I am also an emotional eater. Doesn't bode well for the physical or mental me.
Have gained weight, let myself, friendships and the house "go". I know in my heart I'm spending too much time alone and I purpose to depression monster, lets name her Rosemary, shall we { Oh yes she smells wonderful and tastes great but if you leave her to her own ministrations she will consume everything around.}
that we get out of the house and go volunteer somewhere. But then she reminds me we will have to iron our clothes, put on makeup and do our hair and it just seems like so much work, I back out.
So, after reading a friend's blog about her weight loss struggle and her amazing journal towards trim and slim not to mention her self-esteem, I am going to call my wonderful therapist tomorrow and see about an appointment. If I make an appointment I daren't miss it!!!!!
See you tomorrow. Hopefully. Maybe. Sigh.
